The narcoleptic brain – A beautiful mind- by Brenda Moore

The narcoleptic brain – A beautiful mind – by Brenda Moore

Have you ever overheard someone talk about their dream they had the night before and thought Buddy, you have no idea what it means to have had a crazy dream until you’ve heard one of mine!  Are you constantly disappointed when a book about dreams is published because it simply doesn’t capture the type of experience you’ve had as a narcoleptic? Were you too scared to tell someone that while you lay in bed wide awake yet unable to move, strange noises and the feeling of an evil presence had been in your bedroom? These are just a few of the many frustrations I’d felt in my youth, which led me to say, One day I’ll write my own book about dreams and sleep.


The nightmares consumed my youth almost to the point of asking my priest for help. Then, I discovered “dream powers” that allowed me to fly, make objects appear out of no where, and even take control of the dream content. My “dream characters” and I got to know one another after returning to the scene during recurring dreams. On the other hand, the demons got to know my dream power weapons and adjusted to keep me in terror.


Sleep paralysis was a discovery that I had become fascinated with as a young adult dealing with a combination of sleep deprivation and life hardships. Fear and worry didn’t always bring feelings of an unwanted presence in the room. After an amazing sleep paralysis interaction with my deceased mother by hearing the sound of her voice and feeling the warmth of her hands holding mine, I craved the opportunity for more episodes.


The psych student in me loved to examine the nature behind lucid dreaming and sleep paralysis, while my simple humanity longed to explore and even understand the spiritual connection I’d discovered. My lifelong experiences within the mind of a narcoleptic and education in Polysomnography allowed me the privilege to finally share my beliefs and write my book about dreams and sleep.


I’m pleased to present 40 Winks: A Narcoleptic’s Journey through Sleep, Dreams & Spirituality as my contribution in hopes to educate people on dreams from the mind of a talented dreamer.
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40 Winks: A Narcoleptic’s Journey Through Sleep, Dreams & Spirituality


Art made by Morgan Adams

Art made by Morgan Adams

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Cataplexy… by Leon Lukassen

Cataplexy… by Leon Lukassen

I have posted two stories so far in the Dutch Narcolepsy Group. One about sleep paralysis and one about dreams / nightmares. And apparently people like it. So here’s my 3rd attempt.

A very important symptom of narcolepsy I have not exposed yet is cataplexy.
Cataplexy, according to the books “abrupt temporary loss of muscle control during strong emotions.”
From my point of view, that should change to “abrupt temporary loss of muscle control during unexpected emotions”
Because I can be very emotional without me getting cataplexy.
As long as the tension builds up slowly so that I can continue to control my emotions.
But for example, when I’m in the supermarket, and completely unexpectedly run into an old friend while I was just hesitating whether I should buy white or brown bread …
Then suddenly a lot of different feelings pile on in me and I feel my knees nodding or my speech will blur. Like I speak with double tongue and my face has idiotic tendencies.

My mother once said: “Don’t get so nervous!”
She obviously saw my face not fully participating while having a discussion of no meaning whatsoever.
So my experience with cataplexy is certainly not that I will fall if someone screams “BOO” behind my back.

I think I’ve suffered from this since the age of 18.
And so I taught myself to especially not to be too emotional.
But that has resulted in the view of my surroundings that I am “indifferent”.
Emotions are everywhere and if you do not show much difference because you suppress the things from within then you are seen as much different and so literally indifferent.

Fortunately, there are people who know me. I cherish them dearly!